"I can see the light in you. Sara is back," says my therapist at my most recent counseling session. And I feel it too. God, it feels good. Although, it is a little strange to make peace with death, yearn for relief, and then find yourself still alive. And wanting to live. But, I'm grateful … Continue reading Love Will Voices: Still Standing
"Mom, why are you making that face?" So asks my five year old while we are driving home from the grocery store. "What face?" I ask unaware. "This one." She scowls demonstrating "Oh, I'm just thinking," I reply. "I make that face when I'm thinking too. When I'm thinking sad thoughts." My heart breaks. Because … Continue reading Love Will Voices: Taking a Stand
I have not had a panic attack in two months. I cannot remember the last time I had a nightmare; and when I have, it didn't render me incapacitated the following morning. Finally...progress. It has been years. Every time I would start to feel like a version of myself, I found myself pregnant. I could … Continue reading Now, Where Were We?
Please welcome Heather to the blog. She has written a truthful and open account of what it is like battling anxiety. If you or anyone you know is battling depression, anxiety or contemplating suicide, there is help: National Suicide Prevention Lifeline . My name is Heather Butikofer and I grew up in Philadelphia, Pennsylvania. I am … Continue reading Love Will Voices: Heather’s Story
Panic attacks. A demon in their own right. A painful knot in my stomach. Nausea. Heart racing. My chest. I cannot take a deep breath in. I can’t breathe. I can’t breathe. It is so tight. I can’t breathe. Overwhelmed. I don’t know what to do. My kids ask a question, “WHAT?” I snap. Everything feels … Continue reading Love Will Voices: My Story